Cute Couples Make Me Sick

OK, I myself am guilty of being a "cute couple".  When my boyfriend and I are together, we are adorable enough to make people want to puke.  We talk in Dinosaur to eachother, we cuddle and kiss, we have pet names, we say "I Love You" all the time - we're nearly as perfect as a couple can be.  We next to never fight, and if we argue then it lasts about 20 min before we come apologizing to eachother.  We are the epitome of "cute".

Well, being in the military is a bitch, and my boyfriend isn't here anymore.

This presents a problem.  Although I will see him sometime within the next 6 months...I will not see him whenever the hell I want.  I wont get to text him when I want or go out to dinner when I want, or blah blah blah.  On top of that, I QUIT SMOKING - which is making me pissy sometimes!!!  I haven't told my parents yet b/c every day sucks when I'm bored and have nothing to do and just wanna go out and have one - and I can't tell them and end up failing at it.  Boyfriend and I quit together tho - which means by going back on my word, i'm not only disappointing myself, but also him - which is also making me more accountable to NOT doing it.  I know the guilt that I would have for even smoking one and either...

[[a) having to lie about it so he doesn't give up
or
b) having to tell him b/c I sucked at life and couldn't say no to tobacco]]

...would consume me - so therefore, knowing how bad the guild would be - even if I wanted one so bad I could club baby seals - I just can't start smoking again.  Today is Day 5.  *sigh*

It's also Day 5 w/o my boyfriend.  Altho, I was plesantly surprised when he called me this morning and woke me up to talk to me while he was driving - it made me super happy b/c I was kinda feeling like I was the only one that wanted to call him and talk to eachother. (Having had issues with long distance relationships in the past - through no fault of my own - you could understand why I would be worried if my "other 1/2" seems to be faultering on the "lines of communication")  But he has surprised me several times in the last few days - reminding me that even tho he's far away, he still cares A LOT about me and loves me just as much :)

So to all the cute couples out there - who I am jealous of b/c you are so cute and my boyfriend and I aren't together right now to ONE UP YOUR ASSES!!! - please be mindful that I miss "boyfriend" like crazy and can't wait to see him again.  RAWR ON YOU ALL!!!!

2 years & counting...

As of yesterday, I have been at my job for 2 years.  Time flies by but I still can't seem to get anywhere.  Not that this is a dead end job, just feels like I'm getting nowhere quick.

And on a similar note - has anyone ever had one of those "shut up and let me get on with my day" type of moments in your meetings at work?  It seems that during meetings with my colleages, one of my bosses will get off on a tangent at the end of the meeting for about 10 min about NOTHING pertaining to my job.  If I didn't have things to do, then I would be OK with that, but seriously.  I don't care about how your favorite hockey team did.  Not in the slightest bit.  If you're done with everything that you have to say, please, lets just end the meeting and let me get on with my work.  I have deadlines.  I have things to do unlike you apparently...and you wonder why "morale" is low...?  WASTED TIME and pointless meetings.  *sigh*.  I love my job, but SERIOUSLY.  Time well wasted.

Well, I thought that my boyfriend and I were going to go out and celebrate my 2 year Anniversary at my job... but he suggested drinking with friends.  EH.  I'll go.  He said we'll see a movie tonight too - I assume that will probably depend on how drunk he is tho.  I'm not going to drink, just don't feel like it - and where we're going isn't really the atmosphere that I like to drink in.  I like the "lets kick back and have a few beers" environment.  Usually - the place that we're going has the "LETS GET WASTED!!" environment.  I'll pass on the beer, thanx.

Other than that - I have an event that I'm going to on Saturday, and then Sunday is free.  Wonder what I'm gonna get into this weekend...?

What's In a Name?

Lemme just say that I love my parents.

I decided recently that I want my old name back.  I feel like it's really my final step away from the terrible memories that belong to my past, my hellacious marriage, loss of friends, and the whole reason I'm here today.  I want to start living for me again, me and my family - and I don't want to hear his name ever again.

That being said.... I'm going to have to cough up $395....
WTF.

Turns out a name change isn't as cheap as I thought...
Although I'm filing for a waiver from the fees, it's not "for sure" getting approved.

So as I was filling out my paperwork, I was forced to have to call my mother (who holds a bank account for me) to find out the amount in that account - to which I was greeted with questions about my court papers [mom is naturally curious].  I told her that I had wanted to surprise them, but I was filing for my name change and was trying to get the $400 fee waived.  Long story short, she talked to my dad [tho I DID NOT CALL to ask for their help, or their money - and I made this very clear] and Dad offered to buy my car from me for $500 - giving me a little money left over to pay some bills :)

I had to tell my boyfriend - I was so happy I decided that I needed to tell him in person so I could hug him when I told him :)  Divorced for a year - and I'm FINALLY getting my name back :)

Considering Creating New Blogs...

I haven't really decided yet, but I'm considering creating a new blog.  It seems to me, after blogging for about 3 days now, that most blogs are dedicated to one particular thing; scrapbooking, photography, art, food, daily life....etc.  Considering, that I plan to incorporate all of these things into a single blog - I have decided that this is not the best of ideas.  So within the next week, I will probably be working to make a new blog, or 2, and will gradually be moving things to those blogs.  It all depends on the amount of time that I have. 

Man, I wish I had time for all of the things that I love.  I don't have enough space in my room for scrapbooking or sewing, I don't have my own kitchen to cook in... *sigh* At least I can buy clothes and go out to eat! :)

So here is the plan...I want to create a "food" blog as well as a "Style" blog and a Photography blog.  Any suggestions on some titles?  The food blog for now will be restaurant reviews, and the style blog will be of my own wearing.  Thoughts?



Update 13 June 11: I have started another new blog, this one dedicated to my love of cooking & cooking magazines.  Please check it out! http://duchessofdinner.blogspot.com/