OK, I myself am guilty of being a "cute couple". When my boyfriend and I are together, we are adorable enough to make people want to puke. We talk in Dinosaur to eachother, we cuddle and kiss, we have pet names, we say "I Love You" all the time - we're nearly as perfect as a couple can be. We next to never fight, and if we argue then it lasts about 20 min before we come apologizing to eachother. We are the epitome of "cute".
Well, being in the military is a bitch, and my boyfriend isn't here anymore.
This presents a problem. Although I will see him sometime within the next 6 months...I will not see him whenever the hell I want. I wont get to text him when I want or go out to dinner when I want, or blah blah blah. On top of that, I QUIT SMOKING - which is making me pissy sometimes!!! I haven't told my parents yet b/c every day sucks when I'm bored and have nothing to do and just wanna go out and have one - and I can't tell them and end up failing at it. Boyfriend and I quit together tho - which means by going back on my word, i'm not only disappointing myself, but also him - which is also making me more accountable to NOT doing it. I know the guilt that I would have for even smoking one and either...
[[a) having to lie about it so he doesn't give up
or
b) having to tell him b/c I sucked at life and couldn't say no to tobacco]]
...would consume me - so therefore, knowing how bad the guild would be - even if I wanted one so bad I could club baby seals - I just can't start smoking again. Today is Day 5. *sigh*
It's also Day 5 w/o my boyfriend. Altho, I was plesantly surprised when he called me this morning and woke me up to talk to me while he was driving - it made me super happy b/c I was kinda feeling like I was the only one that wanted to call him and talk to eachother. (Having had issues with long distance relationships in the past - through no fault of my own - you could understand why I would be worried if my "other 1/2" seems to be faultering on the "lines of communication") But he has surprised me several times in the last few days - reminding me that even tho he's far away, he still cares A LOT about me and loves me just as much :)
So to all the cute couples out there - who I am jealous of b/c you are so cute and my boyfriend and I aren't together right now to ONE UP YOUR ASSES!!! - please be mindful that I miss "boyfriend" like crazy and can't wait to see him again. RAWR ON YOU ALL!!!!
